In the Beginning...

Have you ever stood in the mirror and wondered what happened to the person that you used to be, to the person that you still see in your mind but not reflected in the mirror? I'm not talking just about physical beauty, but also about the dreams and desires that used to drive us, and now sit stagnant in some long forgotten but well intentioned dream.

I realized this morning that, statically, at least 1/3 if not 1/2 of my life is over, and that leaves very little time to finish doing the things that were once so important to finish. So, here goes nothing... The first step in reinventing what has become a mediocre existence. Wait, let me first clarify this - my life is fantastic. I have more love and laughter and joy in every day than many people get in a lifetime. If I could go no further in life than what I have now I would be happy every day with that. I simply have a little voice in my head that says I need to do more. I need to seek this dream or this vacation or this little moment of pleasure before the chance is gone.

Step One - Embrace Change!

First, what should I change? For starters I'll go with vanity. No, I won't change my vanity, I will work a little harder to appease it. Lose 20 pounds, brush my hair more than twice a week, that sort of nonsense that keeps me sane and keeps my husband interested. I'll do this a little at a time so in a month or so I'll add some more changes. You know what they say, too much change at once and you are destined to fail. Or, you are simply to lazy to do too much at once. Mmmm, I wonder which one I am...

Step Two - Write!

Well that's easy. You can not believe the things that are done on a daily basis. I will simply log them and let you decide how much you believe of it. Sadly, most will be true, no matter how much you want to deny it. I will change names to protect the innocent. I will be playing the part of Lala, with Lulu as my always there, never fail, need to be merged with counterpart that keeps me sane every day.

Step Three - Travel!

My monthly Disneyland trips and hiking excursions not withstanding, there is very little travel that I have logged. I can draw you a detailed map of Oahu, but I've never been on any of the other islands. I've driven from one coast to the other, but never stopped to enjoy the journey. I've been to Canada but never to Mexico, which is only 10 miles away. The master plan is Europe this spring, which involves less shopping and more saving on my part, so that also goes back to the whole "change" category. It also involves two 15 hour plane flights. I'm not sure if there is enough Xanax in the world, but I'll keep you updated.

I think that's enough decisions and proclamations for one day.

As promised- The Story of the Day:

Ring Ring
Lala: "Can I help you?"
Annoying Lady: "I need you to tell me it's OK for my mom to fly to Australia."
Lala: Huh? Who the fuck is this? "I'm sorry m'am, only the Dr. can do that. May I have your name and have him call you?"
Annoying Lady: "No. Just tell me, in your opinion, is it OK medically for her to go. I know she just had a blood clot in her lungs and she's really old and sick, but since you're a nurse you can tell me if, in your opinion, it will be safe."
Lala: OMG. "No, I'm sorry, I can't do that. I am not a Dr.. I will have the Dr. call you back when he is available." Click
Ring Ring
Lulu: "Can I help you?"
Annoying Lady: "Hi, I just spoke with the nurse and she couldn't help me so I'm hoping you can. Can you tell me it's OK for my to fly my mom to Australia?"
Lulu: "Hold please." "Lala, crazy lady on line one for you"
Lala: Please shoot me now. "Can I help you..."